Magic Windows #22

by angeliska on July 26, 2011

My, it’s been an age since I last made a foray into the world of Magic Windows!
I’m not sure why, exactly – other than that I have heaps of photos tucked away
where I can’t access them without the help of a tech-sherpa. Hopefully soon, those
will be unearthed, but for the moment, here are some images from my various cameras
that will serve as a window into what I have found curious and delightful over this summer:
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A majestic dead leaf moth in the stairwell of my jewelry studio. I don’t know the species name, alas.
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Sidral Mundet Mazana Verde – the prettiest, palest green apple soda ever.
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I could not resist these Kermit the Frog sheets at an estate sale.
I tried, I really did – but I failed. I don’t even have a twin bed
to put them on! But I’m a sucker for a banjo-playing frog, man.
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Weird shadows on a fence at another small-town garage sale.
I think they are super creepy. The people having the sale thought
I was super creepy, taking pictures of their fence and all. Ha!
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This one day my beloved brujita-sister, Sienna O’Banion and I had the perfect summer afternoon:
we took a ride in her vintage bleached bone-colored Mercedes-Benz, Blanca – with all the
windows down, going about 20 miles an hour at all times (because Sienna drives like a granny!)
We drank Topo Chicos and got lollies from the pneumatic tube (magic!) at the bank – Dum Dum pops,
in MYSTERY flavor
, which is of course my favorite. We jammed out to this amazing tape of gospel hits,
The Way Up the Hill – which is the perfect soundtrack for tootling around town in Blanca. We had quite
a time, picnicking on coconut water and chocolate and P. Terry’s under pecan branches, talking of all the
things that dear lady friends talk about – love, loss and life. Then onward to the clear, cold waters of the
hallowed springs, to become mermaids again – our hair streaming out like seaweed, our skin like gold.
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Butter and bacon.
What more do you require?
(Other than to win the lottery, that is…)
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These peaches from came from our trees!
They are little, and very sweet. Nothin’
better than a bowlful of fruit from trees
you grew, eh? I love our miniature orchard.
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Take a bite o’ peach!
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My breakfast, which was too lovely + delicious not to photograph:
greek honey yogurt, blueberries, big ripe figs and sliced angelcots!
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I found this dolly sunbather with her markered-on itty
bitty polka-dot bikini lounging poolside at Deep Eddy.
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The eternal kitten (who these days we are mostly referring to as “Blinky”) teaches me that summer is for catnaps.

Happy Birthday Pandora!

by angeliska on July 22, 2011

Today marks a very special holiday indeed – the birthday of my dearest darling, Miss Pandora Gastelum.
In lieu of getting to celebrate her whelping with her (the travesty of why this cannot be is detailed below),
I am writing this here, so those of you who do not know her can begin to, a little bit – and for those of you
lucky enough to have encountered this very rara avis – this ruby-throated hummingbird of a girl, well –
today’s the day to send her some goodwill and happy wishes! This isn’t just any old birthday either, mind you!
Our little pea-pod princess is has made 30 journeys around the sun today! Can you even believe it? I cannot.
Pandora
School picture day! 7th grade. For real.
You see, we met when I was 13 and she was 11. The setting: a manky teenage boy’s bedroom in the trashiest
trailer in our neighborhood. I was in the middle of having my first kiss with a chubby boy who I agreed to try
making out with on basis of the fact that he had Robert Smith hair (sort of). The soundtrack: The Glove – Blue Sunshine.
With song titles like “Punish Me With Kisses” and “Mouth to Mouth“, it really couldn’t have been much more apt. I was much
more captivated with the album (it took me years to track it down and hear it again! Still a major favorite.) than I was
with the kissing. I think I was a little stoned, and all I could think about was giant pink slugs undulating. ¡El Grosso Maximo!
At the sound of the door creaking open, we wriggled apart, and through a veil of shaggy bangs that I thought hid my awesome
coke-bottle glasses (they totally, uh, didn’t.) I spied a feral wolf-child. A sullen cherub with a nimbus of golden curls that glowed
in the blacklight bulb. She stomped in all tough in plaid skater shorts and monkey boots. We eyed each other, and I think both
realized instantly that we were saved. Literally, in so many ways. We say it all the time, but it doesn’t make it any less true
that if we hadn’t stumbled across each other at that time in our lives, that both of us would have probably ended up dead
or worse. How fate decided to bless us by having our parents find houses right down the street from each other made up
(a bit) for all the other ways she decided to completely fuck us up. Soon, we were spending every free moment together,
hanging out in burned-out, abandoned houses after school and sneaking out of our bedroom windows to smoke pilfered
ciggies and wander around. Eventually we were dressing up like baby hooker vampires and cadging rides to nightclubs
and yet somehow made it back in our beds every night before 4am and go to school in the morning. We were wild, bad
little Lolitas, and it’s a goddamn miracle that we made it out of adolescence so (relatively) unscathed. Amazing, really.
angel + pandora
I can’t find the picture of us as baby vampires, so instead here’s us dazed + starry-eyed after modeling in our first fashion show
at the very first New Bohemia, when it was over on Duval. Back in the day, man. We were such babies! Children! What.

Pea on St. Valentine’s Day back in our old place on Royal + Mandeville.
Observe her emu claw diadem and scars from Cupid’s arrows. Heartbreaker!

Sweet valentines. I am grateful to say that this girl was my very first lover, and who better to be initiated into
the mysteries of love than the person you love most in the world, your best friend and partner in crime?
We were lucky. We are lucky. She has taught me so much in these past (holy shit) 19 years…

Queen Marie, still from Pastrisetimania. – “Cake Sits, a fetishistic photo series.”

CYGNUS OLOR
This video is a collaboration between Dana Sherwood and The Black Forest Fancies
An incorrigible collector with an eye for the exotic captures a swan girl and holds her captive in a confectionary cabin

For the past few years, Pandora was working with the Dream Community in Taiwan,
living in rural villages, and working with the inhabitants to build large scale puppets and stage colorful parades.

I’ll let the beautiful Princess of the Puyuma tell you about it in her own words:
In this year overburdened by impossible goodbyes, I’d simply forgotten to miss Taiwan.
I’ve taken the double life summer dive headfirst into color I never can suffer at home.
The electric magenta hibiscus, relentless fuchsia and indigo of tree climbing orchids.
Tropical shades that sear the retina when viewed at midday and emanate neon through
thunderstorm gray. We have such colors in the swamps where I’ve nestled. We’ve the
requisite cruelty of the hot house garrote, anesthetized in narcotic notes of jasmine and datura.
But here these colors throb with mountains’ magic, erupting from black rock and vapour like Boschian
airships suspended in battle – a mesozoic sex display, the glow of which recalls the natal moments when
this magma formed landscape was molten. The timeless beauty of the mountains underlining indignity
of the cinderblock cityscapes, alive with devouring mold. Tree and trellis spangled with giant spiders,
Giger aliens spinning omens, and all we monstrous spinners on display.


Our parade work this year concerns the rediscovery and celebration of Taiwan’s aboriginal cultures.
There are 14 active and politically recognized tribes in Taiwan today, each with their own unique language,
mythology and cultural practices. There are at least a dozen more unrecognized tribes whose organization is
decentralized, as reflected in the death or morbidity of their language and dispersal of their genetic strains.
Archeological research suggests that the ancestors of the current tribes have been living on this island since 8000
years before Chinese immigration began in the 17th century. They have an ethnic identity that is distinct from the
Asian mainland but now comprise only 2 percent of Taiwan’s population, the majority of the population being
ethnically and linguistically Chinese. From the beginning of recorded history the aboriginal peoples have experienced
economic and military conflict with a global menagerie of covetous colonizers: western and northern Europeans,
north and south Americans, the Japanese, who came armed with the anvil of archeology. They staged digs and
opened museums, nailed bare asses into grey woolen writing desks in a thousand thatch roofed classrooms.
Turning practice into history as they systematically laid the – timeless – life of the village to waste.
A clock forever counting circles round the irrevocable bootprints of modernity.


Today as ever looms the ubiquitous spectre of lady China, face-shifting parasite sister to the all-too-proximal north.
These colonial viruses have redefined the island with almost comic regularity, invasions so frequent that they echo the
seasonal tracks of typhoon – violently resurfacing the patterns of life and landscape with language shifts and cultural
(re)assimilation. In keeping with the common plight of indigenous peoples the world over, Taiwanese aboriginals face
steep social barriers rooted in prejudice and exclusion: unemployment, substandard state provision for healthcare and
education, squalid housing and farming conditions, staggering rates of alcoholism and drug addiction. Since the 1980s
efforts have been undertaken on the part of the surviving tribes toward a revival of ethnic identity.
These include incorporating elements of their culture into commercial and artistic endeavors, pop music and pageantry.
That’s where we parade makers figure in. Putting craft through its paces and the spinners on display.


Falling in love with an enameled sewing machine. I mean, wouldn’t you?
The Mudlark Confectionary a cabinet of curious conceptions.
Dolls of The Mudlark Confectionary

Saint Dymphna
These days though, Pandora owns and operates the Mudlark Public Theatre in New Orleans upper Ninth Ward
neighborhood and is the artistic director of that space’s resident company, The Mudlark Puppeteers and co-founder
of the Black Forest Fancies Ltd. She makes puppets, dolls, sets and stories. She is a weaver of magic webs.

A puppet from The Black Wallows Foundling Hospital.
So here’s the deal, in her own words:
In the month of June I had the extreme pleasure of working as a craftswoman on an installation of my dear friend Mark Dion’s
design for a site on a National Tourist Road in Norway. The piece will be located at the top of a mountain, near a glacier
in the incomparably beautiful area of Ardal. A number of world-reknowned artists have been selected by the Norwegian
Tourist Bureau to contribute work to such sites. Notable among these is the last work of the brilliant metal artist Louise Bourgeois,
which is a memorial to the victims of the witch-burnings at Vardo Island, in the North of Norway.
Mark’s piece is cavern containing manufactured rock and mineral formations and artificial bear sleeping atop a mountain of artifacts
both collected and manufactured for the piece. I spent five beautiful weeks generating the cave architecture and some fake paleolithic
artifacts with a group of very talented and lovable fellow-artists. The hours were long and the weather often extreme, but we were
comfortable and happy from start to finish. Our every need was met while we were on site, and the accommodations were more than
comfortable. I had every reason upon submitting my invoice to think that I would be financially compensated for my time in a manner
as prompt and efficient as that which the other practical aspects of the work had enjoyed. I was sorely mistaken. A week out, I began
my inquiry as to the state of the pay. As a self-employed artist, a full-time New Orleanian, and the owner/operator of both a theatrical
venue and a touring company, I budget my life with extreme care and planning.
I am constantly at work and seeking future opportunities. I now, a month after completing my contribution to the piece in Norway, still
haven’t even the vaguest clue as to when I will be paid. None of us do. Even Mark, with his esteemed reputation and integrality to the
completion of the project next year, has been given what can only be called ‘the serious, red-tape runaround.’ At first we were told simply
to be patient, that everything was being done in its proper order. The latest word is that all payments are on hold until the end of the
Norwegian Summer holidays – at some time in August. While the bureaucrats summer in sunnier climes, our invoices are evidently on some
Kafka-esque nightmare ride through the gears of a grim machine of the very old garde, and as in Kafka, there is no indication as to where
or when the ride might terminate. In short, I budgeted my life around money I have no access to for the indefinite future.
I have been unavailable for all other work in this period and consequently find myself at a pretty serious financial impasse.
I have had to cancel many plans, the most poignant being a visit to my hometown of Austin, TX to visit my oldest friends and
light candles at my parents’ memorials in honor of my 30th birthday, which is July 22nd.
I am hoping to sell some of my past-works, mostly hand sculpted art-dolls, to offset the deficit.
– Pandora Gastelum
If you’d like to help, please take a look at some of her work over at The Mudlark Confectionary,
and be on the lookout for her handmade art dolls for sale soon on etsy under mudlarkconfectionary
(we’re working on getting her shop up, but in the meantime, let me know if you have any questions
about purchasing pieces!) She has gifted me a new dolly for my every birthday for years, and each
one is perfect and comes intact with their very own soul. I treasure them enormously.

(Photo by Petra Arnold)
Happy birthday, star of the sea, poppy petal princess, peach-pie pea-pod, sweet sister, dearheart!

Summer Reading Wonderland

by angeliska on July 19, 2011

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As you might imagine, our summer here in Austin has been ferociously, brutally hot. The kind of fierce, dry heat that sucks all the
air out of your lungs as soon as you step out your door. The kind of heat that inhibits outdoor activity, productivity and even the
thought of doing anything terribly strenuous. So, basically the perfect weather (and excuse) for languishing with a tall stack of
reading material and an icy beverage and allowing yourself to get lost in other worlds, other times. I’ve always been an avid bookworm.
I learned to read when I was 4 or so, frustrated by the inattention of my parents after dinner, both their heads buried in books.
I remember vividly tugging at the book on my father’s lap, struggling to make sense of the squiggly black shapes on the page.
How magic that moment when I suddenly understood their meaning. HOP ON POP! Eureka! My dad reading to me every single
night and teaching me through the magic of Dr. Seuss opened up a door in my reality that made it possible for a lonely, sad and
strange kid to survive childhood. Not to mention adolescence, and oh yes – adulthood! Fiction is my drug of choice, the escape I
can always turn to when my own world is just too much. Libraries have always been my haven, and I was never restricted on what
I was allowed to read, or how many books I could check out at a time. My dad and I would always leave the library staggering
and barely able to see over the tops of our respective towering stacks. So it was kind of embarrassing that I allowed myself to have
a lapse away from the beloved embrace of the public library. It was a sordid tale involving overdue fines on some DVDs that somehow
skyrocketed to an amount that surely would’ve allowed me to have just purchased the movies outright. Ah, procrastination. I let my
account go, and took up a torrid affair with a dangerous hussy named Half.com (do not click on that link unless you have lots of room
on your bookshelves and money to burn!) Oh yes, those 3am sprees! Buying used paperbacks for 75 cents (plus 4 dollars shipping)
doesn’t seem so bad if it’s just every once in awhile, but I got a little out of hand with it. I bought a lot of books that I just don’t need
to own, as well as plenty that I’m thrilled to keep forever – but really, it got a little crazy. See, I also really, really love getting parcels
in the mail – and since I’ve become a shitty correspondent and hardly ever actually send all the letters and packages I intend to, it means
that my mailbox often only holds Netflix envelopes and stupid old bills. Also, the bulk of my books are still packed away in boxes, so that
means that I’ve had to construct a whole new library to tide me over until the day when our house actually has real walls, with bookshelves.
I’m only half kidding. For the most part, all of these books next to my side of the bed are recent-ish acquisitions. I had to bring in another
shelf for them. Before that, it was just a series of waist-high piles. Please don’t judge my organizing by color – it just kind of happened:
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“The shelf was filled with books that were hard to read, that could devastate
and remake one’s soul, and that, when they were finished, had a kick like a mule.”

— Mark Helprin (Winter’s Tale)
Yeah, so… I had to break up with Half.com at last. It wasn’t easy, and we still find ourselves tangled in illicit late-night booty calls every
once in awhile when I can’t seem to find that ONE book that I really want to re-read or reference. The library and I, however, have
rekindled our relationship and are totally in love again. Interlibrary loan, man. I can get ANY book! It’s not instantly gratifying, but
at least there’s a branch about 10 blocks from my house, and you know what? It’s freezing in there. Serious air conditioning, and
a librarian with a penchant for graphic novels and comics, so there’s heaps of all my favorites. Reunited – and it feels so good.
So here’s some of the books I’ve read this summer:
✸ Never Let Me Go by Kazuo Ishiguro – Read it, wept, and then watched the film and wept some more. So cold and beautiful.
✸ Cults, Conspiracies and Secret Societies by Arthur Goldwag – This is an excellent compendium written very humorously and objectively and recommended for both wingnuts and skeptics alike. Totally fascinating, and somewhat horrifying.
“An indispensable guide, Cults, Conspiracies, and Secret Societies connects the dots and sets the record straight on a host of greedy gurus and murderous messiahs, crepuscular cabals and suspicious coincidences. Some topics are familiar—the Kennedy assassinations, the Bilderberg Group, the Illuminati, the People’s Temple and Heaven’s Gate—and some surprising, like Oulipo, a select group of intellectuals who created wild formulas for creating literary masterpieces, and the Chauffeurs, an eighteenth-century society of French home invaders, who set fire to their victims’ feet.”
✸ Carrion Comfort by Dan Simmons
“CARRION COMFORT is one of the three greatest horror novels of the 20th century. Simple as that.” — Stephen King
“Epic in scale and scope but intimately disturbing, CARRION COMFORT spans the ages to rewrite history and tug at the very fabric of reality. A nightmarish chronicle of predator and prey that will shatter your world view forever. A true classic.” — Guillermo del Toro
With blurbs like that, from those guys, I really couldn’t not give this one a try. Turns out they were right. Mind vampires, man!
✸ The Year’s Best Dark Fantasy and Horror edited by Paula Guran
Chock full of darkness! Good for devouring on the brightest days.
✸ Random Acts of Senseless Violence by Jack Womack
A recommendation from William Gibson via New York Magazine. Slayed me.
✸ The Tiger’s Wife by Tea Obrecht – Reading it now. The excerpt in The New Yorker kept me sitting in my bath until my fingers were pruned, too captivated to pause.
✸ Locas II : Maggie, Hopey & Ray by Jaime Hernandez – I’ve been obsessed with Love + Rockets since I was a teen. This brilliant comics series has a lot to do with my penchant for punk-rock latina lesbians. That, and Vasquez in Aliens. SIGH!
✸ The Monsters of Templeton and Delicate Edible Birds by Lauren Groff
These books both totally massacred my heart. Drowned it in the lake. Backed over it again and again until it was mashed into the dirt.
This woman’s writing is just superb. I cannot wait for her latest, Arcadia, to come out! The cover is so juicy, and I know it’ll be crazy good.
Also, here’s a list of some of the songs Groff listened to whilst working on The Monsters of Templeton
(this is just the sort of writerly errata that I find totally fascinating, plus she has good taste in music!)
✸ Deathless by Catherynne M. Valente – Fucking brilliant, and a tale so close to my heart. I can’t wait to read it again,
as well as all her other books. Baba Yaga, Marya Morevna, and Koschei the Deathless? Yes, and yes, and yes please. More, please.
✸ Baba Yaga Laid an Egg by Dubravka Ugresic
This is what moved me most from this book:
“‘And so. Tomorrow our story ends,’ she said, with a touch of irony.
The ‘our story’ rang like a shattered glass. She had used the Bulgarian phrase nashiyat s te roman. Russians say the same.
The word roman can mean two things: the novel as a literary form, or a romantic liaison, an affair.
The phrase to have a story with someone means to be in love.”
and this:
“We’d meet down at the station in the evening, after all the trains had passed… I remembered that phrase – in the evening, after all the trains had passed – because she must have repeated it. Having adopted the phrase, I further embroidered it with my own colours. Dusk, fireflies, a quiet train station, the warm tracks gleaming in the dark, roaching frogs, a moon in the sky – and my mother’s young, eager heart pounding with excitement.”
✸ The Heretic’s Daughter and The Wolves of Andover by Kathleen Kent
These were both recommended by Maria Dahvana Headley, and they were fantastic.
Beautifully evocative, well told, and so crushingly sad and strong.
summer reading
My blanket at Barton Springs, strewn with an array of delicious magazines. This is how I wish I could spend every single day.
✸ The best holiday reads from The Guardian – Writers recall their most memorable holiday reads – what are yours?
This article is wonderful, and inspired me to add many books to my list, but my favorite bit is from William Gibson:
“If that’s holiday as in “utterly removed from any sense of immediate surroundings”, my most memorable holiday reading is Cormac McCarthy’s Blood Meridian, which I started in the cab on the way to Vancouver airport, headed for a first trip to Berlin where I was doing something, I wasn’t sure what, with Samuel Delany and Wim Wenders at the Kunsthalle. I am uncertain as to the year, likely it was 1991, before the publication of All the Pretty Horses. I had recently read McCarthy’s astonishing The Orchard Keeper, and on the urging of the friend who had recommended that, I began Blood Meridian. I remember nothing else, door to door, between my home in Vancouver and the hotel room in which I finished the book in Berlin. I awoke from it as from some terribly potent dream, and found myself, quite unexpectedly, in a strange city. Being Berlin, and particularly then, it was a very strange city. A few nights later, over in the east, I continued to experience intense overlays of Blood Meridian. Indeed, I think those overlays helped me better comprehend what I was seeing, and not to panic. The Judge, I knew, would understand all of this.”
I have my own story about traveling and reading Blood Meridian.
I had been trying to dig into it for a few days, prior to a road trip up to a friend’s ranch in Colorado, but my brain just wasn’t having it.
I couldn’t latch in, for some reason. Something about racing through vast expanses of West Texas brought it home for me, though – and I was
hooked. I read it compulsively, even though reading in the car makes me horribly nauseous. My job was navigator, and I pored over a map,
finding all the tiny towns McCarthy described, passing through them in a blur of brown and bone. The landscape I passed through matched
what I was reading, and it made the book come vibrantly alive for me. It was the first Cormac McCarthy book I’d read, and it marked me indelibly.
“They were watching, out there past men’s knowing, where stars are drowning
and whales ferry their vast souls through the black and seamless sea.”

— Cormac McCarthy (Blood Meridian: Or the Evening Redness in the West)
✸ The aforementioned Maria Dahvana Headley will be here in Austin on the 19th at Bookpeople to read from (and sign copies of!) her new book, Queen of Kings, which I can’t wait to read.
✸ Rainer Maria Rilke: Trust In What Is Difficult – by Jocelyn K. Glei
This, this, this:
“What is necessary, after all, is only this:
solitude, vast inner solitude.
To walk inside yourself and meet no one for hours —
that is what you must be able to attain.”

✸ Fifty-two Stories is awesome
✸ « In Which These Are The Hundred Greatest Novels
✸ Cold Reading by Alan Moore
✸ Why I Live at the P.O. – by Eudora Welty
✸ A Wagner Matinée by Willa Cather
✸ 40 literary terms you should know from The Centered Librarian
✸ A fresh look at Flannery O’Connor
You may know her prose, but have you seen her cartoons?
✸ 50 years ago, Borges fell in love with Texas…
A deeply fascinating article from Guernica by Eric Benson
“Texas”
“Here too. Here as at the other
Edge of the hemisphere, an endless plain
Where a man’s cry dies a lonely death.
Here too the Indian, the lasso, the wild horse.
Here too the bird that never shows itself,
That sings for the memory of one evening
Over the rumblings of history
Here too the mystic alphabet of stars
Leading my pen over the page to names
Not swept aside in the continual
Labyrinth of Days: San Jacinto
And that other Thermopylae, the Alamo.
Here too, the never understood
Anxious, and brief affair that is life.”

✸ Becoming Mary Poppins
P. L. Travers, Walt Disney, and the making of a myth.
✸ Lost Recipes Salvaged
Bookstore owner Michael Popek shares the handwritten recipes he finds tucked into books.
I love his collection of forgotten bookmarks, also. Sweet and poignant.
✸ 25 Things Every Writer Should Know from the awesome Chuck Wendig at Terrible Minds
✸ The Life Of Edward Gorey, Told By An Old Friend : NPR
✸ The Strange Case of Edward Gorey by Alexander Theroux

This was not the only case of Gorey entertaining his fans at home. He was even listed in the phone book. “He was a very poor hermit,” says Theroux. “Goth people would flock over there — and he would say, ‘We’ve got customers.’ They’d say, ‘I love your work!’ and start gushing, and he’d say, ‘Thank you … now what?’ But he was always very accessible, and people would always stop over to see him.

✸ Your Brain’s Black Box: 1979 Penthouse Interview with Alejandro Jodorowsky
So! What are you reading right now? What are you loving, and what do you think I might love?

Justine's 1937 – Marquis de Sade et cetera

by angeliska on July 13, 2011

“Paris Calling” Bastille Day at Justine’s is imminent, and given
how much fun we had last year, I can’t wait to see what kind of magic this year’s celebration will hold…
Justine’s is so, so special – an amazing French brasserie where you can order a steak & frites and champagne
at 1:00 in the morning,and where beautifully themed parties are hosted all year, attracting flamboyantly costumed
guests like swarms of elegant moths to a lantern. I love it there so much, and I was thrilled to be a part of their Valentine’s
celebration back in February – a Marquis de Sade themed evening, which as you can imagine was rife with naughtiness
and carnal mischief! If you are sensitive to naked body parts (including mine!) or at work, you may want to stop now.

Justine’s Marquis de Sade Night from 2HeadedHorse on Vimeo.

This video makes me so happy! It really captures how beautiful the night was, and utilizes one of my very favorite songs…


Wonderful polaroid by Tim Pipe. I love the jaguar in the background.

(Photo by John Leach)
I helped organize dancers for the delightful peepshow booth that night. Oh my, it was naughty indeed!
Sassy, Raven, Amelia, Johna, Maria and the two Jays kept the voyeurs very entertained. Shades could be lifted
or drawn from within, and tips could be slid in through a slot under that window
Still wishing I managed to keep a hold on my commemorative Justine’s paddle that night. It’s nice to make a mark.

(Photo by Lisa Dean)

(Photo by John Leach)
Look at that mischievous grin! You can tell that Amelia’s been up to no good…

(Photo by Lisa Dean)
It was Mistress Stephanie’s birthday that night – lucky me got to administer her birthday spankings!

(Photo by John Leach)
Sweetness.

(Photo by John Leach)

(Photo by John Leach)
We dined on duckhearts, oysters and sumptuous chocolates – divine decadence, in every sense.

(Photo by Morffyne)
The gorgeous Chella Cardona in a pewter leather jackal bondage mask by FLEET Ilya.

(Photo by Morffyne)
The gory aftermath.
So, as you can imagine, parties at Justine’s are simply not to be missed!
Here’s the details for this year’s Bastille day soiree:
“I’m not here for your amusement. You’re here for mine”
– Johnny Rotten
Sets of punk rock classics from the Sex Pistols to Siouxsie Sioux to the Clash to Black Flag,
by French Punk Rock band Cran d’Arret.
All-girl Ramones band ROCKAWAY BITCH
Cold beer and free cake.
Graffiti wall installation and facsimiles of rare posters for everyone who comes in a Bastille Exhibition by Visual Vitriol
author David Ensminger
, brought to you by the badass Domy Books.
Dirty little show by French Twist.
Annie Ray photo booth.
Celebrate freedom.
Pull out your blue Vivienne Westwood dress, paint your
mohawk red, and find that white Circle Jerks tour t-shirt.
To top it all off, I have honor of judging the BEST FUCKING DRESSED contest!
The prizes are pretty amazing:
1st BLOODY BEAUTIFUL PRIZE:
A glass of whiskey ON THE HOUSE every day of your life until the end of time at Justine’s!
2nd PRIZE:
ENGLISH AS A SECOND LANGUAGE, 2LP Enigma Records 1983.
Very rare double album of spoken word pieces and music by HENRY ROLLINS (BLACK FLAG),
MIKE WATT & D.BOON (MINUTEMEN), JOHN DOE (X), CHARLES BUKOWSKI, KIM FOWLEY,
and countless others. Cover features art by legendary punk artist Raymond Pettibon.
Only a handful were pressed in 1983 and this release has been out of print ever since.
Now considered one of the most rare of Pettibon album art releases, cover remains in
excellent condition with both records (all four sides) pristine near mint.
3rd PRIZE:
In 1999, photographer Nan Goldin, conceptual artist Damien Hirst, conceptual artist
Christopher Chiappa, and advertising executives from R.J.Reynolds Tobacco Co.,
began a partnership that defied any sort of industry standard. The art-world and
ad-world elites became entangled during the creation of a one-of-a-kind, test-marketing
campaign for Camel brand cigarettes. The limited edition, signed, rare 1999 Nan Goldin
pack is in excellent condition, and a collector’s item.

10pm – 2am, Bastille Day, Thursday July 14th – 2011
$10
Be there!

Exquisite Corpse – Stray Cat Strut

by angeliska on July 12, 2011

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My look for the evening ended up looking something like if Dark Lily from Legend
had ended up doing it with a cat on the side. Maybe one that had a penchant for KISS?

This scene is definitely at the top of my list of things that made me weird…
Hello! Amazing. This may well have been the birth of my gothness, right here.
If you were a child when this film came out, wasn’t this film just EVERYTHING to you?
I know it was for me. Unicorns, faeries, goblins, Tim Curry as the Devil? I mean!
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I was also thinking a lot about the Tarot of the Cat People by Karen Kuykendall
while I was getting ready… I’ve loved this deck since I was a child – it’s so strange and beautiful.

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Raven + Monika worked all day on their crazy-amazing cat ensembles!
They were totally mindblowing! I honestly still can’t handle how perfect they were.
I’ve instructed them to both wear these costumes as their everyday clothes, from now on.
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Amelia made the perfect mermaid! She was a sequinned sea-treat to tempt all the kitties!
“Do you see that fishy swimming round and round
Maybe we can reaching in and make it drown…
If we sneaking up upon it carefully
There will be head for you a tail for me”

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Beware leaping tigers in the jungle!
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Gina, Kitty, Devi, and myself gettin’ wild….
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Azz everywhere!
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Devi!
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and with Xander Harris
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Casting hexes on my intended! It’s the only way to keep ’em in line!
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Lovely Drew
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Rowr!
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Summer Lawson
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Celeste Chesser
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Meow!
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Proud parents with their litter.
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Oh Norah!
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Kittens!
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Hairballs!
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Lali Ferpecto!
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It kind of ended up being that kind of a night…
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Exquisite Corpse – Lovecats
To purchase prints go here….

Stray Cats – Stray Cat Strut

Squeeze – Cool For Cats

Exquisite Corpse – Serpentine Gallery

by angeliska on July 6, 2011

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We are the witches who bring you Exquisite Corpse:
Lau – brain-melting hex projections
Angeliska – hostess priestess
Norah – door-empress gatekeeper
Charlene – DJ Pasht – song sorceress!
All photos by Devaki Knowles of www.funlovingphotos.net
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Beautiful Monika and Nemesis
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Jackie bought her beautiful new ophidian companion from a guy who was leaving the country, and couldn’t take her.
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Mr. Bones happened to be riding in the guy’s front seat when he pulled up for the snake hand-off.
He very kindly lent the handsome skeleton to adorn our photobooth for the night! A snake and a
skeleton? It doesn’t really get more goth than that! How perfectly synchronicitous it was…
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Radiant Norah
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Sass!
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Miss Blue Madrigal working Elegant Gothic Lolita REALNESS (serpent sold seperately!)
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La Belle Colombe – Elaine
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Devi + Natalie gettin’ wild!
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I love this lady, and her songs.
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Rachel Dobos wears Nemesis well, but the snakes – they are not for eating! They are for kissing!
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David Salazar, creature of the night.
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Wooing the wonderful Miss Maranda!
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Liz + Katzen!
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Ramon’s shrine. Rest in peace, dear friend.

Exquisite Corpse – LOVECATS

by angeliska on July 1, 2011

For this month’s Exquisite Corpse, I chose the theme LOVECATS
for a variety of reasons. Firstly, it falls on July 7th, which years ago
I randomly decided was my beloved cat Junior‘s birthday. He was
the most amazing cat I’ve ever known, and I still miss him horribly.
I got him as a kitten when I was 5, and he lived to the ripe old age of 21!
So, this night is for Junior, and all the other awesome cats we know and love.
My other reasons? Well… Lovecats is an amazing song, and I just don’t hear
played often enough, so we’re going to fix that! Also, there was a store here
in Austin in the 90’s called Lovecat that definitely shaped my style: lots of gaudy
vintage dresses, bleached out satanic punk shirts, glittery psychedelic flowers and
platform shoes. It was in a cool old house on West 12th – man, I wish it still was!
I found these amazing images over at Mlle. Chromium Dumb Belle’s lovely blog –
thank you to Mlle. Ghoul and Mlle. Avril-Violette for your help in identifying provenance!

“La Belle et le Bête, circa 1940. Tirage argentique d’époque”
(The others are Leonor Fini –
André Pieyre de Mandiargues – Masques de Leonor Fini
Paris, La Parade Éditions André Bonne, 1951

We move like cagey tigers
We couldn’t get closer than this
The way we walk
The way we talk
The way we stalk
The way we kiss


We slip through the streets
While everyone sleeps
Getting bigger and sleeker
And wider and brighter
We bite and scratch and scream all night
Let’s go and
Throw all the songs we know
Into the sea
You and me
All these years and no one heard
I’ll show you in spring
It’s a treacherous thing
We missed you hissed the lovecats…


We’re so wonderfully wonderfully wonderfully
Wonderfully pretty
Oh you know that I’d do anything for you
We should have each other to tea huh?
We should have each other with cream
Then curl up by the fire
And sleep for awhile
It’s the grooviest thing
It’s the perfect dream…


Hand in hand
Is the only way to land
And always the right way round
Not broken in pieces
Like hated little meeces…

I must admit, ever since Lundi Gras, I’ve been itching to do more crazy cat make-up!
It feels so right, somehow! These shots are from the 7 Minutes ‘Til Heaven Party in New Orleans:

(photos by Glitter Guts)

Me an’ my brother form another mother, Rusty Lazer!

It’s probably not surprising that after seeing the musical Cats at a very impressionable age
that I became fascinated with leotards-as-clothing, and that I still sing “Memory” (loudly!) in the shower.
In fact, maybe I shouldn’t admit that I was incredibly titillated at the part where all the cat-dancers come
into the audience and get all purry and fondly. Was that just me? Does that make me… A furry?!
Oh well!

Another big inspiration is Soo Catwoman!
I remember loving her most of all, poring over pictures of The Bromley Contingent in
Greil Marcus’ Lipstick Traces when I was just a wee thing. Free admission to anyone with
genuine Catwoman hair! I always wanted it, but was never brave enough! You do it!





The Cure – The Lovecats (Top Of the Pops, 29th December 1983)


This version by Tricky is killer – can’t wait to dance to it…

Clip from The Mighty Boosh…
Goodnight, moon! See you at Lovecats…

Peacock Spider Honey

by angeliska on June 29, 2011


✸ I’ve become very obsessed with Peacock Spiders recently. Certain experiences have been contriving to teach me to look
very closely at the tiny wonders in our world: the mysteries of minutiae, the infinitesimally small and complex creatures who
might otherwise be overlooked in favor of those grander in scale. These wee beasties wave their little legs at you, beckoning.

Dr. Jürgen Otto‘s footage of the courtship and mating behaviour of the Australian peacock spider Maratus volans.


✸ I’ve been getting really excited about Triboluminescence lately. Such a strange phenomenon!
✸ 5-10-15-20: Antony – I loved this article from Antony where he talks about his musical influences.
Christian Death, Marc and the Mambas, Nina Simone and Selda! Inspiring as always.

✸ Lakshmi Bai – the Rani (queen) of Jhansi
freedom-fighting warrior heroine from On This Deity

St Clemens, Church of Sts Peter and Paul, Rott-am-Inn, Germany – photo by Paul Koudoun­aris
✸ A wonderful article about the The amazing jeweled skeletons of Europe from Fortean Times

✸ Caddis fly larvae are known to incorporate bits of whatever they can find into their cocoons,
be it fish bone or bits of leaves. Hubert Duprat gave them gold, turquoise, gems and pearls.
“Since the early 1980s, artist Hubert Duprat has been utilizing insects to construct some of his “sculptures.”
By removing caddis fly larvae from their natural habitat and providing them with precious materials, he
prompts them to manufacture cases that resemble jewelers’ creations. Information theory, as explained by
biologists such as Jacques Monod and Henri Atlan, helps us understand what seems to be the insect’s aesthetic
behavior. The activities of the caddis worm, as manipulated by Hubert Duprat, are prompted by the “noise”—
beads, pearls and 18-karat gold pieces — introduced by the artist into the insect’s environment.”

✸

Victorian-Era Dress, Made With 1,000 Beetle Wings, Restored for £50,000
This is my dress. I need it back! Can someone go tell them?

✸ I’ve been meaning to moon about my love for the Kenzo Spring/Summer 2011 show for ages –
of course it’s right up my alley with the combination of hyper-saturated, rich color, exciting prints,
delicate silks and loads of intricate details. I go crazy for anything resembling an ethnic costume,
and this show was a mish-mash of Russian doll, Peruvian shepherdess and Japanese geisha. Heavenly.

It starts out a little dull, but watch and wait for the gorgeous and perfect grand finale. J’ADORE!





✸ The Orchid Mantis (Hymenopus coronatus) is called so, because it mimics orchid flowers.
They are usually white, but some of them grow little tints of pink over time. They live in papaya trees,
orchids and blossoming frangipani trees in Malaysia, Indonesia & Sumatra.

✸ When everything flies away, the outline of the heart goes black
Hans Christian Andersen’s illustrated “stamp books” from 50Watts
✸ What is Peter Falk Doing in Wings of Desire ?
Oh darling man, you will be missed! I used to watch Columbo and eat dried mangos with a couple of macaws every afternoon.
✸ The Paper Cuts of Chad Merritt featured in Hi-Fructose
Hooray for Chadling! I love that we will be living in the same town very soon!
✸ Norman’s Ghost Hole via Coilhouse
I love this. A lot.
That what I’ve got for right now! Send any bits of excitement + enchantment my way, won’t you?

Summer Solstice – A Lush Green Wish

by angeliska on June 21, 2011

I kneel in the night on a high hill in the back country, I bow my head,
and make this fervent wish, with the memory of green tendrils wrapped
around my heart, squeezing there, holding me fast against the earth.

By Kaycee
A solstice wish for the rains to come back and wet the cracked and dry
lips of our land, so thirsty, so cooked. A lush and whispering wish,
a green and liquid gaze, a beetle-wing hum and scissor of wings
to accompany a change in the wind, in the weather. Let the fireflies
come back, the poppyheads, the bare feet in soft dark earth. Come back,
you voluptuous nights that made me lose myself in the air, the air the exact
temperature of my blood. Nightswimming in you, I become weightless, invisible.

The membrane between my flesh and the dark green leaves, my heartbeat and the cicada
song grows so permeable that I nearly forget to exist, breathing there in the night, on the path,
no light but the moon. Lay me down between the rows, under that spicy canopy of tomato
stalks, sharp and greener than green. Heady and hot, stinging my upper lip studded with
silver sweat, the mosquito wail, the drip, the thunder. Come back dark clouds, furious black,
riddled with the swarming termites of heat lightning. Give me a tympani boom that makes
my little dogs shake and tremble, give me the insect alarm call, the pressure drop, wind lifting
the hair stuck to the back of my neck. Come feverish storms! Pound at my windows at the witching
hour, and maybe I’ll just fling them all open and let you in. Come back you tempests, you ponderous
fierce summer thunderstorms, bristling with electricity, gray wolves of cumulus hunkering at the horizon.

Denishawn dancers doing their Thai magic.
Bring back those nights where no one can seem to leave their porches, where your silk slips are soaked
though, even though you’ve barely moved a muscle in an hour. Laying there with your back glued to the
wood floor, watching the ceiling fan sway, the fat moths gossip, another lizard hunting party making a foray
back across the screen-door. “Iced tea and no deep thinking” indeed. Rum and cigars and dominoes and
no thoughts of work or money. Only your friend laughing with her red lipstick on, the fairy lights, that night.

Moth photographs by my friend, amazingly talented photographer L.E. Lake
I petition the leafy sea-dragons I have seen swimming beneath the skin of the sky for their watery blessings.
I will ask the creatures made of violet prism who live in little fires to make inquiries about where our paperwork
might have been mislaid. I’m sure we filled it out correctly, in triplicate even, but nixies can be tricksy I reckon,
and it seems we’ve been bumped to the bottom of the list. May their fiery ears be tickled by our wishmaking into
issuing benedictions, and may they be gentled by our songs, by our gifts. What else can we do now, but beg
elementals to take pity on us? Let our wishes be enough for them. Let them bring back our green world.


Photograph by Tamera Ferro – aka. Mlle. Verhext
This is the song a slow afternoon rain that would sing so sweetly, on one of those dim days
where you sit at the kitchen table with your tea and all the lights off, and wish
that the rain could be your lover, and come around every day at about 4 o’ clock,
like it does in New Orleans still. While you sit there clutching your mug and making wishes.

Orlando

by angeliska on June 17, 2011

Oh today, today. I don’t really want to write about what today was like, because it was quite awful.
Instead, I’ll write about something that makes me happier: my favorite film. I know, I know – just one?
Is it even possible to pick only one? I think so. For me, it’s the film that found me at an early age, and
provided a defining moment in my sense of beauty and aesthetics. It is the film that no matter how many
times I see it (many, many!) it remains perfectly fresh: never fading, or withering, never growing old – just
as Queen Elizabeth exhorted. I have my beloved grandparents to thank, for their good taste and judgement,
and for exposing me to so many wonderful films. I was thirteen years old, and visiting them when they still lived
in Los Angeles. I remember devouring L.A. Weekly when I was there – so hungry for culture, for information,
for the lures of forbidden concerts and drag shows. We all decided Orlando looked interesting, and the three
of us went to see it at a little old art-house cinema with incredibly creaky and uncomfortable wooden seats.
I was forever changed. The music, that beautiful soundtrack, the gorgeous costumes and cinematography,
and of course – the pink, the pearl, and the perfection of her sex: my first flaming female crush and future wife, Tilda Swinton.
Oh, androgyny! This perhaps was my first encounter with how wonderful, how right it could be to not have to choose
one gender over the other. That one could be as Orlando said: “Same person. No difference at all… just a different sex.”
Combined with my feverish and everlasting love for meticulously executed costume and historical dramas, and just the simple
beauty of the story and the characters – well, it caught me up then and has never let go. There is no moment in that film that
is wasted, that is unecessary. From beginning to end, it is truly perfect. If you’ve never seen it, I hope you will. If you do, or
if you have, then you will understand some essential and inexpressible things about me, and what I find beautiful.
All quotes below are from Virginia Woolf’s book, Orlando: A Biography, upon which
the film was based. Obviously, they go hand in hand in the wonderfulness department. Read it.



“He loved, beneath all this summer transiency, to feel the earth’s spine beneath him; for such he took the hard root of the oak tree to be; or, for image followed image, it was the back of a great horse that he was riding, or the deck of a tumbling ship — it was anything indeed, so long as it was hard, for he felt the need of something which he could attach his floating heart to; the heart that tugged at his side; the heart that seemed filled with spiced and amorous gales every evening about this time when he walked out.”

“The taste for books was an early one. As a child he was sometimes found at midnight by a page still reading.
They took his taper away, and he bred glow-worms to serve his purpose. They took the glow-worms away
and he almost burnt the house down with a tinder.”


“For it would seem – her case proved it – that we write, not with the fingers, but with the whole person.
The nerve which controls the pen winds itself about every fibre of our being, threads the heart, pierces the liver.”


The brilliant Quentin Crisp as Queen Elizabeth. What a clever thrill is the scene between he and Tilda,
him playing a great old dowager empress, and her playing a young sprig of noble youth, a gingery boy.

“But Sasha was from Russia, where the sunsets are longer, the dawns less sudden
and sentences are often left unfinished from doubt as how to best end them.”



“Better was it to go unknown and leave behind you an arch, then to burn like a meteor and leave no dust.”

“Was not poetry a secret transaction, a voice answering a voice?”

“In the 18th century we knew how everything was done, but here I rise through the air, I listen to voices in America,
I see men flying- but how is it done? I can’t even begin to wonder. So my belief in magic returns.”







“Nature, who has played so many queer tricks upon us, making us so unequally of clay and diamonds, of rainbow and granite, and stuffed them into a case, often of the most incongruous, for the poet has a butcher’s face and the butcher a poet’s; nature, who delights in muddle and mystery, so that even now (the first of November, 1927) we know not why we go upstairs, or why we come down again, our most daily movements are like the passage of a ship on an unknown sea, and the sailors at the mast-head ask, pointing their glasses to the horizon: Is there land or is there none? to which, if we are prophets, we make answer
“Yes”; if we are truthful we say “No”; nature, who has so much to answer for besides the perhaps unwieldy length of this sentence, has further complicated her task and added to our confusion by providing not only a perfect ragbag of odds and ends within us—a piece of a policeman’s trousers lying cheek by jowl with Queen Alexandra’s wedding veil— but has contrived that the whole assortment shall be lightly stitched together by a single thread. Memory is the seamstress, and a capricious one at that. Memory runs her needle in and out, up and down, hither and thither. We know not what comes next, or what follows after. Thus, the most ordinary movement in the world, such as sitting down at a table and pulling the inkstand
towards one, may agitate a thousand odd, disconnected fragments, now bright, now dim, hanging and bobbing and dipping and flaunting, like the underlinen of a family of fourteen on a line in a gale of wind. Instead of being a single, downright, bluff piece of work of which no man need feel ashamed, our commonest deeds are set about with a fluttering and flickering of wings, a rising and falling of lights.”


“For Love, to which we may now return, has two faces; one white, the other black; two bodies; one smooth, the other hairy.
It has two hands, two feet, two tails, two, indeed, of every member and each one is the exact opposite of the other.
Yet, so strictly are they joined together that you cannot separate them. In this case, Orlando’s love began her flight
towards him with her white face turned, and her smooth and lovely body outwards. Nearer and nearer she came
wafting before her airs of pure delight. All of a sudden (at the sight of the Archduchess presumably) she wheeled about,
turned the other way round; showed herself black, hairy, brutish; and it was Lust the vulture, not Love, the Bird of Paradise
that flopped, foully and disgustingly, upon his shoulders. Hence he ran; hence he fetched the footman.”


I found this beautiful photo and great quote over at Sophie Ward’s Papercastle Press: PYJAMA TOAST
“One of Tilda’s many ideas about having the big house in Nairn was that people would come and be around;
interesting people for her kids to meet. Like a salon, I suppose. It’s peaceful out there but often at weekends there’s
a whole variety of people. It’s quite variable and chaotic. There’s no television. You can get a lot done and you’re
in very pleasant company. It’s never boring. The guy who does their decorating is fantastic, really interesting to talk to.
You’ve got a huge continuum of people who may or may not be high powered in the outside world, but you don’t know
because everybody’s just in their pyjamas eating toast. Which is how you should meet people”

–AL Kennedy, Writer
This is so, so great:
Sally Potter and Tilda Swinton Discuss Their Film Orlando

Orlando trailer

A change of sex

I couldn’t resist this sweet La Roux/Orlando mash-up. Again with the ginger ladies! Sigh.
So, also the kitten we found in the bushes last year, Bojangles, went through a similar transformation.
We had always assumed that Bojangles was a boy – the orangeness (orange cats are 80% male), the appearance of what
we thought were testicles (eh?), and the fact that he was spraying things down territorially with piss. I mean! Really?
All signs pointed to dude. Imagine my shock, when one night at 3am I looked up from my book, hearing a strange squalling.
A little peachy lumpkin had tumbled out of my Grampy’s old armoire and had become tangled in a hat veil. I was so perplexed!
Where had this little thing come from? A pregnant cat has snuck into my armoire and given birth to two kittens! Strangely,
Bojangles was very interested and concerned about these newborns. I took in the dilated, crazy-mom gaze, her mowling,
and the fact that these two larvae looked exactly like her, and it finally dawned on me – my cat had had a change of sex.
Well, probably not – but! Given the story, and her gingery complexion, we decided that maybe we should change her
name from Renfield Bojangles Whiskerwitz Tom Tum Shrimp Scampi to Orlando, or Tilda, or maybe Tillie for short?
Of course, none of that happened – we call the cat Booey. Very undignified, but it stuck. She’s fixed and happy now!


Did you ever see anything so adorable in your entire life? I thought not.
We gave them to my two little cousins, Molly + Eliza who decided that they
should be named Pumpkin Pie and Apple Pie Zucchini Bread. Well, of course!

Grrizelda and Booey are best friends. The cuddle like this and make out all the time.
It’s ridiculous. You can see here that they are actually holding hands. Paws. Whatever, it’s amazing.
More about when we found poor little Booey here:
Peachtree Moon
So strange to think it’s been nearly a year since then.
So much has changed in my life. So much happened right
then, and it was hard changes – but I can say now, for the
best. Funny to look at that old tarot reading and be able
to see it all so much more clearly now. It’s all there.