Black Forest Birthday!

by angeliska on January 2, 2009


by Audrey Kawasaki
Ah yes, that time is quickly approaching-
a birthdee for me! It’s my dirty thirty,
so I want make it a grand one!

by Elsa Mora
You are invited to a..
Black Forest Birthday Party
and Fairytale Fête!

Saturday, January 10th
8pm – until the cock crows, or so..
At Grackle Grove (aka our house!)
Contact me if you need directions..
It will be an Eastern European Potluck again so,
please bring your favorite dish
or beverage from:
Czech Republic
Hungary
Poland
Slovakia
Slovenia
Estonia
Latvia
Lithuania
Ukraine
Albania
Bulgaria
Bosnia and Herzegovina
Croatia
Romania
Serbia
or Russia!
Greek, Macedonian or Israeli food is excellent too!
Also, German or Austrian goodies-
to match the theme!
Bring on the spaetzle und strudel!
There is a wonderful cookbook
called Please to the Table
I will be consulting for inspiration!
¡total pizdetz kitchen!
Bewildered?
Sasha’s Gourmet Russian Market & Cafe
or Phoenicia Bakery & Deli are
great places to find imported treats
like caviar and pirozhki!

This will be a costume party also,
so please come dressed in your
best Black Forest Fashions!

Bust out your dirndls und lederhosen
und ethnic folk dancing costumes!
I will be posting an inspiring primer
toute suite, but in the meantime
here are some ideas:
Fairytale characters-
especially Red Riding Hood
Big Bad Wolf
Hansel and/or Gretel
Strapping Woodsman
Distressed Damsel
Erl-King
Forest Creatures
Deer Girls
Wolf Children
Krampus
Prinzessen
Milkmaids
Cuckoos
Witches
Gnomes
Mushrooms
et cetera!

(Can you believe this photograph is from 1887?)
p.s.
Surprise performances,
sultry dances, impromptu arias
or theatrical pieces will be welcomed
with immense delight!
Bring musical instruments if you play, please?
Don’t forget your dancing slippers!

Lone Grove New Year

by angeliska on January 2, 2009

It’s become a New Year’s tradition for me and mine
to go out to Lone Grove, a ghost-town near Llano
and my ancestral home. My aunt and uncle live there now,
and before them my grandparents and great-grandparents
lived there. My mother died there. I spent countless summers
swimming in the creek and wrecking on dirt-bikes there.
My family has lived on that land since 1888.
We are soaked into the dry soil and twisted trees,
our faces take on aspects of the landscape-
craggy granite outcroppings and billows of wildflowers.

We arrived not long before sunset, as usual-
with just enough time to get our bearings and set up camp.
The night went by so quickly- a cold and bright crescent
watching over us, with scintillating Venus swinging below.
The celestial bodies went to bed early, and left us
telling stories around the fire, twirling sparklers,
drinking honey mead and champagne
and singing appalachian love songs.

When day broke, we yawned and stretched and gazed
up at the blue sky through the tipi’s smoke vent
and stumbled out to greet the day.
Here I am sleepy and indistinct, but there are
glowing orbs and rainbow shimmers around me.

We stayed warm in the tipi with the woodstove
going- as long as someone woke up every
hour or so to stoke the fire and get more wood..

Cooking outside always feels like such an accomplishment-
especially when the meal turns out so wonderfully.
We made tortillas over the fire, guacamole, black-eyed peas
and cabbage (for luck!), sweet potatoes, scrambled eggs
with peppers, and a truly marvelous ham.
If my first meal of the new year is any indication,
then I reckon 2009 will be an incredible year!

This is my Aunt Ruthie. She is one of my very favorite people in the whole world.

I love her rock and cactus garden- they are like little sculptures
filled with magic and treasures. The crystallized brain on the left
is one of the many gorgeous rocks found in the creekbed.
We went hunting and found so many, we couldn’t carry them all.

Ruthie’s kitchen is a magical place.

These leaves fall in spirals and curlicues-
perfect for making elfin bouquets.

Francesca rock hunting in the creekbed.

You can find a lot of treasure there if you look.

Particularly if bugs, bones and rocks are your thing!

We relaxed all day, lazing around in the warm sun
and exploring my Grampy’s junkyard.
He was a mechanic, so there are lots of cool
old cars rusting to dust in the pasture.

I love this flying witch and rainbow on the Morris Minor.

Lichen is growing on Gertie, the 1959 Buick Electra
I inherited from my mother. One day we will get her up and running.

There are flocks of wild peacocks and mountain sheep
on the land. I managed to catch this shot of a peacock
in mid-flight which made me very happy indeed.
I see it as a good omen for the coming year!
There are more pictures here on my
flickr photostream
if you’d like to explore more..

Pink Moons

by angeliska on December 31, 2008

Ah, another year has found us
struck dumb in awe at the turning-
this year a strange one, where the
perspective has not yet caught up to me.
I have lots of resolutions and goals
for this year that I’ve been meditating on-
and feeling a mite ashamed on looking
back at some from the past few years
that I haven’t quite made good on yet..
I am newly inspired and encouraged,
however- reading Miss Gala’s New Year’s List
got me thinking about some new ways
to set about making the magic I want to happen
a reality. There are some very sensible,
and actually quite simple ideas there
that are eminently useful when it comes
to making all one’s grand plans come to fruition!
My entries from around this time
for the last few years weave a story
told in teepees by goat-girls and princes:
The New Year – 2008
Lucky Stars and Garters – 2007
La Nouvelle Année – 2006
I found some wonderful vintage
New Year’s Eve postcards recently-
I love crescent moons, and mushrooms-
very good omens for me,
and apparently also for folks
one hundred years ago!
Did you see the moon tonight, perchance?
She’s just a thin pink-silvery sliver
on the horizon- my favorite kind of moon.

The first image is from Beth Gallagher
and the three following I found on Morbid Anatomy
(one of my very favorites to read), via the
New York Public Library Digital Index
(an incredible resource!)–
make a point of exploring both next year, eh?




This New Year’s Eve will find me looking up
at the Milky Way from the back pasture of a ghost-town,
which has become the best kind of ritual for me and mine.
I hope it finds you exactly where you want to be too-
and may peace of mind, prosperity,
pink ponies, poppies and pomegranates
find you in 2009.

Happy Hexmas!

by angeliska on December 26, 2008

If you haven’t guessed by now, I really get into holidays-
in my own peculiar way. I just enjoy the idea that a day, or series of days
is extraordinary and to be a reason to celebrate and enjoy any or all of the following:
♥ dressing up
♥ making and giving gifts
♥ delicious special food + drink
♥ making parties
♥ frolicking with family + friends
♥ music-making
I feel extra lucky and blessed to be able to say
that all of the above have been fulfilled this hexmas.
(By the by, in the spirit of creating our own traditions/cosmology/reality,
I have adopted the term HEXMAS from Mlle. Verhext.
It makes me very happy, and has the heathen connotation
that winter festivals are/were rooted in. Which is where it’s at for me.)


This is the very first time that I’ve ever spent the holiday
in my own home, since I moved out of my folks’ house when I was 15.
I was feeling some trepidation about the prospects of waking up
in the house this morning, for a variety of reasons that are hard to sum up-
but have something to do with the fact that I’ve been
consciously and subconsciously avoiding this for years
by always finding myself out of the country, or staying elsewhere
on the eve and morning of. The responsibility of making holiday
magic happen for yourself and others is big kid stuff-
when you are wee, it just seems to be happening all around you,
for you to enjoy. I discovered this year that doing it for yourself,
and especially for others is pretty amazing.
I know this lesson can be applied to a multitude
of situations with similar results, wouldn’t you say?

We set up our wee little tree with vintage ornaments from my childhood
on a beautiful old O’keefe + Merritt stove we aren’t using for cooking yet.
The stockings were hung from the gas knobs with care
(before being stuffed silly with all manner of goodie and whatsit!)

I ended up working on hexmas eve, which was actually a lot of fun-
(despite my dark circles and glumster face!)

Naturally, I had to dress the part of an alpine candy elf-
it made me feel happy and it seemed to delight all the
frazzled folks I encountered throughout the day.

Last night we had an impromptu birthday gathering for
our friend Faith Delphi, a christmas eve baby.
Songs by the fire, mulled wine, wild buffalo curry
and fresh tamales- with lots of laughter and good company..
The perfect way to ring in the Yule!

Look who I found under the tree this morning!
I found these pictures of awkward russian kids and incredible weird santas
on RiotClitShave today that made my heart spasm with joy:

Also, from Lady Lavona, some wonderful writings on
Krampus and La Befana that are bound to illuminate and delight you-
I hope your hexmas was fantastic, dearies!

Winter Solstice – Dark Season

by angeliska on December 21, 2008

Tonight we will celebrate the Winter Solstice,
hopefully under the stars with good friends
around a roaring fire- mugs of something
steaming and spicy in our hands.
Right now it’s so cold and blustery outside
that my hands are almost too numb to write!
I was reading about solstice traditions around
the world this morning and came across these
two goddesses I’d never heard of-
Beiwe and Rozhanitsa.

(Drawing by Julianna Swaney)
The Saami, indigenous people of Finland, Sweden and Norway,
worship Beiwe, the sun-goddess of fertility and sanity.
She travels through the sky in a structure made of reindeer bones
with her daughter, Beiwe-Neia, to herald back
the greenery on which the reindeer feed.
On the winter solstice, her worshipers
would sacrifice white female animals
and thread the meat on sticks which
they bent into rings and tied with bright ribbons.
They also cover their doorposts with butter
so Beiwe can eat it and begin her journey once again.

(You can order this and stick your own twigs in it from walkingthings)

(Photo by Dora Alexandra Nacsa)
In twelfth century Russia, the eastern Slavs worshiped
the winter mother goddess, Rozhanitsa,
offering bloodless sacrifices like honey, bread and cheese.
Bright colored winter embroideries (usually red on white)
depicting the antlered goddess and her children
were made to honor the Feast of Rozhanitsa in late December.
For her feast, small, white-iced cookies shaped like deer
were given as presents or good luck tokens.

(Photo by Julia Aumann)
I also discovered Neil Morris’ perfumes,
and couldn’t resist ordering a sample to try
after I read his description of Dark Season:
“Dark Season is a scent impression of a time I spent in Finland visiting friends —
cold, dry shimmering nights. One evening our group took a walk
through the winter woods in Lahti. The night was crystalline with cold air,
and a majestic forest. The snow started to fall —
it was an other worldly landscape. The stars were like frozen lights,
as if they would break in a thousand crystal pieces, if you breathed on them.
We had to return home as the north wind was getting too potent.
My friend lives on a street (Pohjanakanpolku)
that translates: Path of the Northern Hag.
In the distance we could smell the warm fires and the saunas.
Out in the cold and elements, a dry cold,
we felt the promise of something warm in the distance,
the hearth burning. My friend served gloggi, a mulled wine
— a perfect evening.”

It is composed of:
Cinnamon, Labdanum, Oakmoss,
Myrrh, Fir needle, Dark vanilla,
Indonesian patchouli
I can’t wait to smell it!

I covet very much this necklace made by Element Lux–
Mlle. Verhext found it at Theatre of Dreams..
Also, be sure to check out Tamera’s 12 Hexmas Tidings!
There are so many wonders there- especially her Hiver flickr collection!

I’m lighting trails of candles like this one,
found from Emma Fexeus,
where I found some of these other wonderful images-
design and style from a Scandinavian perspective, indeed!

It is the longest night of the year!

(Photo found on Jed Root)
Makes you want roll around in birch leaves
with an unlaced bodice and pink jellyfish frills, doesn’t it?

(Photo by Sandra Juto)
My winter wish to all as we enter
the belly of the night
is for convivial companionship,
serene dreams, and bright hearth fires.
It will be spring before we know it.
Stay warm, kittens!
More solstice magic:
Winter Solstice – Bright Stars + Firelight
WINTER SOLSTICE – BLOOD MOON
Winter Solstice – Messe de Minuit 

Imps of Winter

by angeliska on December 20, 2008

The other morning when I awoke, a cloud had fallen to earth
and everything was enveloped in a thick haze.

It made everything seem especially ghostly and mysterious,
as if a winter spell had been cast by mischievous imps
intent on obscuring their traces by fogging up my lens!

I did manage to capture some evidence of their sorcery:
a carrot passionately in love with itself, or demurely crossed legs?

Yep, so black and orange are still where it’s at for me-
and apparently corduroy hot-pants are part of the equation
(this is very out of character for me, you see) paired with
my favorite scarf, knitted by my favorite auntie!
I am hanging out in Don Weir’s booth at Uncommon Objects
with my new best friend, who is pretty much all I want for hexmas:

She was made in England by Norah Wellings, or so says
the tag on her foot. I think her name must be Dewpie Dew,
because that’s all she really ever says. She is elfin magic!

Also, this is so wonderful. I would love to have it. Just sayin’.

Gnome and monkey wish you cozy, and want figgy pudding. As do I.

I must sat also, that as far as work christmas parties go- I am quite the lucky duck!
As you may have guessed from their Thanksgiving gathering,
the Wimans really know how to do a sumptuous and festive fête!
I wish more of the photographs had come out, as there are always so many
stunning vignettes- the one above is just a corner of the wine table,
but I liked the tin and the cheery colored orbs. Also nearby were piles of truffles.

This is what I wore:
– sequinned peacock + sari trim headband I made before the party
– 1920’s necklaces, gifts from my sweetheart
– Phoenix brand vintage dress, gifted- pinned up for the evening
(ps. it is actually black and not navy as it appears here)
– peacock stockings and shoes both from modcloth
Photo by DW, beautiful assemblage behind me by Steve Wiman.

My outfit was inspired by these print blocks from a Berlin
party favor and costume catalog- they were made into ornaments
and hung so guests could choose one to take home.
Oh, I just realized that the middle one is upside down!

The Wiman’s christmas tree is the most marvelous, ever.
It is cloth-wrapped wire with a white starlite base,
covered in ornaments hand made by friends over the years.
Each one is a tiny work of art, each with a story.

This was one of my favorites, made last year by Mr. Weir.
To the past, and all it has brought us…

Crimson Meteors

by angeliska on December 15, 2008


Last night we went to see the Golden Dragon Acrobats at the Paramount Theatre.

Oh heavens, they were so incredible! I have rarely seen such
feats of daring, grace and strength performed so playfully
and (apparently) effortlessly. I want to be an acrobat when I grow up.
(Nevermind that I don’t even know how to do a cartwheel!)


We were celebrating Miss Sarah Belle’s birthday (aka. DJ Organgrinder)
with sweet potatoes roasted in the fire and ginger lemon whiskey,
on the most beautiful night of the year. Shivery silver winds + skeins of stars!

And even though she was far away, numerous birthday toasts
were made in honor of Mlle. Tamera’s whelping as well!

In fact, there was a meteor shower in honor of these two amazing mädchens!
A gibbous Moon will overpowered all but the brightest meteors..
Next year, the Geminids will be stunningly bright and very visible,
since the moon will not be so luminous as it has been recently-
mark your calendar and go lay down under the sky!
“And the meteorite’s just what causes the light

And the meteor’s how it’s perceived
And the meteoroid’s a bone thrown
from the void that lies quiet in offering to thee”

-Emily, Joanna Newsom

I have a new winter hat.
It is very, very old- and
was once a raccoon.

Vintage raccoon hat – ebay
Black + copper scarf from street vendor
Hand of Fatima from my gramma
Fur lined vest (handmade by some hippie
out of an old mink coat with moroccan textile)
– Uncommon Objects
AA black tunic
Red cotton leggings – I don’t remember- free box, maybe?
Black vintage Olathe boots – Uncommon Objects

I am super excited about these boots-
it’s so hard to find vintage boots that fit me
(I wear an 8.5) and these are nice and tall!

I’ve been wearing the silver and chrysocolla
bracelets my mama made. For almost 3 years
after the hurricane, I couldn’t find them anywhere-
I was terrified that I might have lost them in the rubble!
I was so relieved and happy when I found them
in a box full of treasure, still caked in plaster sludge.
Chrysocolla is associated with tranquility and peace,
intuition, patience, and unconditional love.
You are still wrecked among heathen dreams.

We danced to where in the winding thicket
The damask roses, bloom on bloom,
Like crimson meteors hang in the gloom.

–William Butler Yeats,
The Wanderings of Oisin: Book I

(foto by Mat Walters)

(foto by Mat Walters)


p.s. The ends of braids make excellent moustaches.

Snow Maidens

by angeliska on December 9, 2008


Snow Queen – from a performance I did at the very last
Cabaret Revoltaire in New Orleans.

Today in Texas there was a record high of 80 degrees.
It was too hot for the sweater and scarf I’d worn this morn,
muggy and grey and slightly sticky- and now…
It is snowing! It really and truly is!
This is amazing to me, as I have only seen snow
a few times in my life- and even though it’s not
sticking really, and won’t last long..
It’s fricking snowing in Texas, y’all!
I couldn’t get any decent pictures
of it- so in lieu of photographic evidence,
here are some snow maidens and
one of my favorite stories..

THE SNOW CHILD -by Angela Carter
Midwinter – invincible, immaculate. The Count and his wife go riding,
he on a grey mare and she on a black one, she wrapped
in the glittering pelts of black foxes; and she wore high, black,
shining boots with scarlet heels and spurs. Fresh snow fell on snow already fallen;
when it ceased, the whole world was white. ‘I wish I had a girl as white as snow,’
says the Count. They ride on. They come to a hole in the snow; this hole is filled with blood.
He says: ‘I wish I had a girl as red as blood’ So they ride on again; here is a raven,
perched on a bare bough. ‘I wish I had a girl as black as that bird’s feather.’
As soon as he had completed her description, there she stood, beside the road,
white skin, red mouth, black hair and stark naked; she was the child of his desire
and the Countess hated her. The Count lifted her up and sat her in front of him
on his saddle but the Countess had only one thought: how shall I be rid of her?
The Countess dropped her glove in the snow and told the girl to get down
to look for it; she meant to gallop off and leave her there but the Count said:
‘I’ll buy you new gloves.’
At that, the furs sprang off the Countess’s shoulders and twined round the naked girl.
Then the Countess threw her diamond brooch through the ice of a frozen pond:
‘Dive in and fetch it for me,’ she said; she thought the girl would drown.
But the Count said: ‘Is she a fish to swim in such cold weather?’
Then her boots leapt off the Countess’s feet and on to the girl’s legs.
Now the Countess was bare as a bone and the girl furred and booted;
the Count felt sorry for his wife. They came to a bush of roses, all in flower.
‘Pick me one,’ said the Countess to the girl. ‘I can’t deny you that,’ said the Count.
So the girl picks a rose; pricks her finger on the thorn; bleeds; screams; falls.
Weeping, the Count got off his horse, unfastened his breeches
and thrust his virile member into the dead girl.
The Countess reined in her stamping mare
and watched him narrowly; he was soon finished.
Then the girl began to melt. Soon there was nothing left of her
but a feather a bird night have dropped; a bloodstain,
like the trace of a fox’s kill on the snow;
and the rose she had pulled off the bush.
Now the Countess had all her clothes on again.
With her long hand, she stroked her furs.
The Count picked up the rose,
bowed and handed it to his wife;
when she touched it, she dropped it.
‘It bites!’ she said.

Here also for your entertainment is a gem
of Russian animation from 1952:
The Snow Maiden (Снегурочка)

Gypsy Honeymoon

by angeliska on December 8, 2008

Yes, and so we resume our elaborate account
of San Franciscan adventures! There was just
so much loveliness, it seems a shame not to
share it- and if I don’t hop on it.. Bottomless
oubliettes will be the fate of these wee tales,
so I had better be quick and relate them to you, eh?

If I could have breakfast at Tartine every morning,
I would be the fattest, sassiest, happiest little hedgehog, ever.
The frangipane tart (pictured above) is my favorite.
Just looking at it makes me have longing feelings!
Not pictured were brioche bread pudding with peaches,
quiche and gingerbread- and steaming bowls of café au lait.

We took a lengthy stroll afterwards, up and down the hills-
picking beautiful blossoms, reading secret messages
written on the sidewalk, and drooling at all the
gorgeous victorian houses encrusted in gingerbread.

I think maybe you could never be unhappy if you lived here.

I found the perfect flowers to adorn my shoes- yes, worishofers
I found on ebay. They are so good for walking and dancing!

Eventually we made our way to Gypsy Honeymoon,
a haven for wonderful treasures and yumminess.

Our Lady of the Piano Shawls

Hello, I am a very fancy lady made of cake living in a bell jar.

Oh, handsome mannequin man with your fluffy white chicken-
please let me into your glass case so that I might try on
those sparkly 1920’s flapper dresses and adorn myself
with victorian mourning bracelets made of hair!

Caught in the mirror of passing fancies-
I must say it was difficult to leave!
Do stop by for a visit there,
should you find yourself in the bay.
Be prepared to covet everything
you see, and leave with many parcels!

Gold and Gray

by angeliska on December 5, 2008

A series of lazy days, wherein I attempt
to hack chunks off of a steadily expanding list,
but when I’m chilly I seem to get less done-
I need to crouch near the heater and
contemplate the dust-motes
whispering gold and gray.
All this woolgathering is thankfully intertupted
by a visit from two of my favorite people,
both very talented musicians and sweet-talkers..

This is Jack Martin, (aka Black Jack Shellac, the Devil’s Grimy Brother)

and this is Miss Courtney “Dainty” Lain (aka Pocketmouse Princess)
serenading us with her rendition of Lullaby of the Leaves,
one of my very favorite songs! She’s on her way to the city
by the bay, so look out for Herringbone Orchestra and hear it live!
Cradle me where southern skies
can watch me with a million eyes,
Oh sing me to sleep,
Lullaby of the leaves
Cover me with heavens blue
and let me dream a dream or two,
Oh sing me to sleep,
Lullaby of the leaves.
Im breezing along,
along with the breeze,
Im hearing a song,
a song through the trees,
Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh.
That pine melody
caressing the shore
familiar to me,
I’ve heard it before
ooh ooh ooh ooh.
don’t I feel it in my soul,
And don’t I know I’ve reached my goal,
Oh sing me to sleep,
Lullaby of the Leaves.


We saw these rock-doves huddling
in the crape myrtles at Cafe Mundi
(where, incidentally, the chai is the most wonderful in town!)
I love the chubby one sitting on top of his pals!
They were so adorable- I’m glad I was able to
get a halfway decent picture, as it was gloaming..

I love this photograph by Anke Merzbach,
an amazing photographer I discovered through
the illustrious and inimitable COILHOUSE.

I need this hat, badly.
Check out her photostream,
it is enlightening and addicting.

I’ve been reading about
Cepes & Tuberose, a perfume by Aftelier
(by the way- I am obsessed with perfume,
but I read about it way more than I buy it-
or even wear it, for that matter)

The perfume is described as
“wild mushrooms with animal undertones
and one of the world’s most voluptuous florals”

Interesting..

I want to open it and go inside, please.
Who lives there, and can I come to tea?

I’ve begged and begged for some goats,
but we can’t have them because they will
eat up the garden. I must be satisfied with
bees and chickens, at least for the moment.
Goaties!

A Russian hunter traipsing through
Russia’s remote Arctic Yamalo-Nenetsk
region in May noticed what he thought
was a reindeer carcass sticking out of the damp snow.
On closer inspection, the “reindeer”
turned out to be a 40,000-year-old baby mammoth,
perfectly encased in ice.
– from National Geographic

Oh yes, and finally-
I just watched Mike Leigh’s
Secrets and Lies, for the first time..
It is such an incredible film-
if you haven’t seen it yet, you must!
Some interesting things I didn’t realize:
much of the dialogue was improvised
by the stellar cast- and a few days
before their mass suicide,
the Heaven’s Gate religious cult
watched Secrets & Lies at a cinema
(but really, don’t let that dissuade you!)